Her little girl was born just 2 days before June. two days. And has the *exact* same heart defect. And is also the 3rd child for her family. And has the same cardiologist. And the same surgeon. And had her first open heart surgery a week after June. Our journeys are/were freakishly similar. Now, this little girl is facing another surgery and I am praying SO hard for her AND her family knowing how freaking hard it is because I've been there. And so has she.
I am struggling because I feel grateful, so so grateful, that we were told that we don't have to go back to the cardiologist for a year and are off all heart meds. But at the same time I feel so upset and frustrated that this little girl doesn't. I know we can not compare, that every journey is different. I guess because everything was so similar up until now I am just feeling grateful it's not us, but then guilty that I feel that, and then.... I don't know. It's just weird!
I am praying so hard for this little girl and that this is IT for her. She won't even need surgery as an pre-teen (which is something we may have to deal with). That she will grow faster and just get back to being a little almost one year old like *that*.
Anyway... it's a really strange place for me to be in. So many emotions. Guilt for being glad it's not us. Pain and agony for this family as I can not even FATHOM going through it AGAIN right now. Anyway, this blog isn't really being shared, so I doubt anyone will even read this, but please pray for this little girl. And her momma too. I want to reach out to her- bring a meal, or whatever she needs. But I feel like maybe I'm not the best person for that. But oh- this one is just really messing with me.
Lindsay
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